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不善

 渠渠渠 2018-02-11


看三毛的故事,看她躲开小贩期待的眼神,然后因为买不了东西而内疚。善良的人,一不小心就会遭受更多良心上的折磨吧。


认识一个小孩子Lollo,大概十六、七岁,经常在学校边的路口卖玉米。觉得是个特别的人是因为第一次跟他接触时,他咕咕哝哝地自说自话,称来自附近的一个农场,但是已经不在那里工作,因为那边同住的男孩子经常爆粗口,品性也差,他受不了。当时听了,挺有触动。一下子买了他三十个玉米。只是玉米买回去,煮了,大家都不是很喜欢吃,大部分都丢掉了。隔段时间Lollo再出现,如果刚好遇见我们开车出去,总是会热情地招手,我隔着车窗跟他打招呼,但是也很快躲过他的眼神。‘买吗?’买回去没人吃的。徐大说,要是我不想内疚,直接给钱他好了。因为留了电话,便直接简讯他道歉说今天买不了,对不起。Lollo会回话说没关系。呃......

 

那天去Standard Bank兑换支票的时候遇到一群年轻人。对这个国家或多或少有种戒备心,特别是在银行的时候。正准备避开他们,突然听到一句‘こんにちは’。我愣了愣,发现他们正看着我,脸上有任何恶意。我笑了。‘NO----------’,一扫紧张的情绪,我也回笑着说了句‘你好’! 这几个家伙笑得更大声了,其中一个有点不好意思地道歉。最后还问我日语的再见怎么说。这也算是最近遇到有趣的事情之一吧。而像这种质朴的人,这边也是大把存在的。

 

有时候也搭载路上拦车的人。一般是本地的建筑工或者附近的妇孺。最近的一次是三母子,瘦骨嶙峋的妈妈抱着正在吃奶的娃娃以及一个三岁左右的女儿。我们停下来的时候,那母亲一直重复着‘Father, please’。我差点听成了,她要去police station找孩子的father。当时开车的是徐大,她其实是在恳求。三个人上了车,徐大打开了窗户。是,这很粗鲁无礼,但是味道确实太大了。车子动身不久,那位妈妈便一直咳嗽。我们又紧张起来。前些天大使馆通报说发现了戊肝,死了几个人,也不知道这位是不是病人。到了目的地,放下她们之后,徐大把四个窗户都开了。然后...车子颠进了路边一个大坑,好不容易开上路,心有余悸。我跟徐大说‘这是做好事心却不诚的报应’。开了很远才想起来应该给她们一点钱......


而我,是不善的。














插播:

你到底要怎样 来自槲寄生Mistletoe 13:44


What Do You Want From Me

Adam Lambert


歌词:

Hey, slow it down

嘿,等一下/慢点

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

Yeah, I'm afraid

是,我很害怕

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

There might have been a time

也许曾有一段时间

I would give myself away

我放弃了自己

Ooh once upon a time

曾经

I didn't give a damn

我什么都不在乎

But now here we are

但现在你在我身边

So what do you want from me

所以你想要我怎么做

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

Just don't give up

别放弃

I'm workin' it out

我正努力摆脱困境

Please don't give in

请别屈服,

I won't let you down

我不会让你失望的

It messed me up,

我曾经搞砸过

Need a second to breathe

需要再次呼吸

Just keep coming around

所以继续留在我身边吧

Hey, what do you want from me

嘿!你想要我怎么做

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

 

Yeah, it's plain to see

是的,很明显

That baby you're beautiful

宝贝你很美丽

And there's nothing wrong with you

你什么错也没有

(nothing's wrong with you)

(你什么错也没有)

It's me. I'm a freak

是我,我总是很古怪

But thanks for lovin' me

但谢谢你爱我

Cause you're doing it perfectly

因为你的爱是如此完美

Yeah there might have been a time

好吧,也许在过去的一段时间里

When I would let you step away

我会想要让你离去

I wouldn't even try but I think

我不会再尝试

You could save my life

但我想你是能够拯救我的人

 

Just don't give up

别放弃

I'm workin' it out

我正努力摆脱困境

Please don't give in

请别放弃

I won't let you down

我不会让你失望

It messed me up,

我曾经混乱

Need a second to breathe

需要再次呼吸

Just keep coming around

所以继续留在我身边

Hey, what do you want from me

嘿!你想要我怎么做

(What do you want from me)

(你想要我怎么做)

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

What do you want from me

你想要我怎么做

(What do you want from me)

(你想要我怎么做)

Just don't give up on me

不要放弃我

I won't let you down

我不会让你失望

No, I won't let you down

不,我不会让你失望

So Just don't give up

所以,别放弃

I'm workin' it out

我正努力摆脱困境

Please don't give in

请别屈服

I won't let you down

我不会让你失望

It messed me up,

我曾经混乱

(It messed me up),

(我曾经混乱)

Need a second to breathe

需要再次呼吸

Just keep coming around

所以继续留在我身边

Hey, what do you want from me

嘿!你想要我怎么做

Just don't give up

别放弃

I'm workin' it out

我正努力摆脱困境

Please don't give in

请别屈服

I won't let you down

我不会让你失望

It messed me up,

我曾经混乱

Need a second to breathe

需要再次呼吸

Just keep coming around

所以继续留在我身边吧

Hey,What do you want from me

嘿!你想要我怎么做

(What do you want from me)

(你想要我怎么做)

What do want from me

你想要我怎么做

(What do you want from me)

(你想要我怎么做)

What do want from me

你想要我怎么做

(What do you want from me hey~)

(你想要我怎么做)

 

词汇扩展:

Hey, slow it down嘿,等一下/慢点

slow down:慢下来;放慢节奏;变得迟钝;

The road is slippery; you'd better slowdown. 路很滑,你最好慢下来/减速。

Would you slow down? I can't keep up! 你慢点儿行不行,人家跟不上啊!

This fear can definitely slow down yourgrowth. 这种恐惧一定会使你的成长放慢。

There is no cure for the disease,although drugs can slow down its rate of development.药物可以让病情缓下来,但是依然是无药可医的。

You will need to slow down for awhile... 你需要放松一段时间。

Even if we cannot slow down every day,at least slow down on Sundays. 即使我们不能每天都放松,至少可以在星期天把节奏慢下来。

slowdown: n.减速,减缓; 怠工;

There has been a sharp slowdown ineconomic growth. 经济增长的速度明显放慢。

It's impossible to assess how manyofficers are participating in the slowdown. 要估算出究竟多少高级职员参与了怠工是不可能的。

 

I would give myself away我会放弃自己。

give away: 赠送;泄露;失去

He was giving his collection away fornothing...他将收藏品无偿捐献出来。

She would give nothing away 她会守口如瓶。

Although they are pretending hard to beyoung, grey hair and cellulite give them away.虽然他们费尽心思地扮年轻,但是花白的头发和赘肉却将他们的真实年龄暴露无遗。(cellulite[?s?lj??la?t] n.(胖女人臀腿部的)脂肪团;)

 

Yeah, it's plain to see是的,很明显

plain: [plen]  n.平原;平地;adj 明显的;明白的;清楚的;(相貌)平常的,不好看的

It was plain to him that I was having anervous breakdown 他能明显地看出我当时处于是崩溃状态。

It was a rip-off, plain and simple.这是个不折不扣的冒牌货/这明摆着是敲竹杠!(rip-off, n 敲竹杠;劣质品;偷窃,骗取; 敲诈行为; 索要高价 plain andsimple  adv当然;不折不扣)

The dress was plain but it hung well onher长裙虽然朴素,却很合她的身。(hang 动词,悬挂;过去式hung 英[h??])


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