November23,2011
Ican’tbelieveit’salreadyThanksgiving!Idolovethisholiday,andIlovefall,soI’mexcitedtogobackhomewheretheleavesarechangingandit’scold.I’mnervousaboutbringingJackhometomeeteveryone,though!He’sgoingtobesooverwhelmed,butIkeeptellinghimthatthey’reallgoingtolovehim.WhichIknowtheywill.IguessI’mmostworriedaboutmysister,sinceshejustgotdivorced.I’mworriedshe’llfeellonelythewholeweekendandwon’twanttohangoutwithusbecauseshe’llbetheonlyonewithoutasignificantother.ItalmostmakesmenotwanttobringJack,soIcanhangoutwithmysisterthewholetimeandhelphergetthroughthis.Butthenagain,that’snotfairtoJackormyself.Iwantmysistertobehappy,butIhavetodowhat’srightformeaswell.I’msureit’llallworkout.Ijustdon’twanthertobedepressedthewholetime.Man,thishasalwaysbeenmyfavoriteholiday,butthisyearIcan’twaitforittobeover.
November24,2011
Well,todaywasthebigday!Oh,I’mexhausted.Ithinkmostlyfromworryingsomuch.Managedtocalmmynervesbywritingapoemontheplane:
Todayisthedayforthanks,food,andfun,
ButwhatdoIdoifI’mnervousaton?
Ijustwantittobethegreatestofdays,
ButSarahwillbethereforeverinmygaze.
Willshebehappy?Willshebesad?
WillJackfeelwelcomeandnotfeelsobad?
Todaywillbefine,todaywillbegrand,
Sostopallyourworryandletthisplaneland!
It’ssilly,butithelpedkeepmebusyforabit.Anyway,itwentalotbetterthanIthought!!Thankgoodness!ThemomentIknockedonMomandDad’swithJack’shandinminewasthemostnervousI’dbeeninawhile!AndIdon’tknowwhyIwassonervous.Iknewthey’dlovehim,andIknewhe’dlovethem,butitstillscaredme.Ihaven’tbroughtsomeonehometomeetthefamilyinalonglongtime...
Sarahrandownstairstogreetusrightaway,andshewasbeaming,sorightawayIletoutasighofrelief!Jackmadeagreatfirstimpression.Everyonelovedthewinethatwebrought,andrightawayMomandSar-bearleanedinandsaid(notsoquietly),“Jules,he’sadorable!”Jackwinkedatme.
Dinnerwasamazing.Asusual,Momoutdidherself,butthebestpartwasthatDadandUncleStevetookJackundertheirwingsanddidsomebondingoverfootball.ItwasjustwhatIwashopingfor!
Thenightwentreallywell.Icouldseemysistergettingsadacoupleoftimes,butshecomposedherselfveryquicklyandwasrightbackinpartymode.I’lltalkmoreprivatelywithhertomorrowwhenwegoshopping,butI’mjustsogladthatsheseemsokaywitheverything.Andmoreimportantly,I’mgladJackhasn’twantedtorunawayyet.;)
November28,2011
Ihaven’thadtimetowritethelastcoupleofdaysbecausewe’vebeensobusy!Friday,wewentshopping,andeventhoughitwassuperhectic,it’stradition,anditwasfun!ItalkedmorewithSarah,whowasfeelingalittlemoresad—oratleastshowingitmorethanThursday.Shejustknowsthattheholidaysaregoingtobeahardtimeforherthisyear,butthat’scompletelyunderstandable.ShewasevensayingthatshemightcomeouttovisitJackandmeinLAforaweekortwo,justtogetaway!Ithinkthat’llbefun.Ireallydomissheranddon’tgettoseehernearlyasoftenasweusedtojustbecausewe’resobusy.Therestoftheweekendwentwell.Onlyacoupleofawkwardmoments,likewhenitslippedthatJackandIwerelivingtogether.Iwasn’tgoingtosayanythinguntilafterChristmas(onethingatatime,Isaid!).Itwasn’tahugedeal—theyknewwewereserious—butIjustdidn’twanttodealwithanycommentsyet.Itisalittlesoon,Iguess,butit’srightforusandwe’resohappytogether.Anyway,itdidn’tseemtobesobadsincetheylikeJacksomuchandthinkweworkreallywelltogether.Mymompulledmeasidelastnightandsaid,“Doyouthinkhe’s‘TheOne’?”Iblushedaboutamillionshadesofpinkandsaid,“Mom!”whichbasicallymeans,“yes”withoutmesayingit.Shegavemeahugandakiss.
Itwasreallyhardtoleavethem.Imisshomealot,especiallyaroundtheholidays.ButLAiswheremylifeisrightnow.Icriedontheplane,andJackcomfortedmeandsaidthat,nowthatheknowsmyfamilylikeshimandthathelikesthem,wecangobackanytimeIwant!Thatmademesmile.Ifeelsoluckytohavehiminmylifeandtohavesuchanamazingfamily.Whataperfectholidaytohelpremindmeofthis!!!
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