白桦《船》英译

 船

白桦

 

我有过多次这样的奇遇，

从天堂到地狱只在瞬息之间；

每一朵可爱、温柔的浪花，

都成了突然崛起、随即倾倒的高山。

 

每一滴海水都变脸变色，

刚刚还是那样美丽、蔚蓝；

旋涡纠缠着旋涡，

我被抛向高空又投进深渊……

 

当时我甚至想到过轻生，

眼前一片苦海无边；

放弃了希望就象放弃了舵柄，

在暴力之下只能沉默和哀叹。

 

今天我才有资格嘲笑昨天的自己，

为昨天落叶似的惶恐感到羞惭；

虚度了多少年华，

船身多次被礁石撞穿……

 

千万次在大洋里撒网，

才捕获到一点点生活的经验，

才恍然大悟，

啊！道理原是如此浅显：

 

你要航行吗？

必然会有千妖百怪出来阻拦；

暴虐的欺凌是它们的游戏，

制造灭亡是它们唯一的才干。

 

命中注定我要常常和它们相逢，

因为我的名字叫做船；

面对强大于自身千万倍的对手，

能援救自己的只有清醒和勇敢。

 

恐惧只能使自己盲目，

盲目只能夸大魔鬼的狰狞嘴脸；

也许我的样子比它们更可怕，

当我以生命相拼，一往无前！

 

只要我还有一根完整的龙骨，

绝不驶进避风的港湾；

把生命放在征途上，

让勇敢来决定道路的宽窄、长短。

 

我完完全全的自由了，

船头成为埋葬它们的铁铲；

我在波浪中有节奏地跳跃，

就象荡着一个巨大的秋千。

 

即使它们终于把我撕碎，

变成一些残破的木片；

我不会沉沦，决不！

我还会在浪尖上飞旋。

 

后来者还会在残片上认出我，

未来的诗人会喟然长叹：

“这里有一个幸福的灵魂，

它曾经是一艘前进着的航船……”

 

The Ship

Bai Hua

 

I have time after time experienced such an adventure:

From heaven to hell needs only a twinkling of eyes;

Each lovable and tender spray,

Becomes in an instant a high peak on the collapsing.

 

Each drop of seawater turns hostile and changes hue;

In spite of its blueness and loveliness a moment ago.

Vortices are entangling upon vortices;

I am heaved heavenward and flung into an abyss ?

 

When the idea of commiting suicide hits me,

Before my eyes is a vast expanse of bitter sea;

To abandon hope is like abandoning the tiller,

And one has to save one’s breath and bewail under violence.

 

Only today I am entitled to mock the me myself of yore,

And I am ashamed of the falling-leaf-like terror of yesterday;

How many years are fooled away,

And the hull of the ship is broken by the reef time and again ?

 

Not until the net is cast for myriads of times in the ocean,

Do we capture a scantling of life experience,

And it dawns on us:

Oh! The reason behind is so simple and easy:

 

Do you intend to take a voyage?

Thousands of monsters are lying in wait to discourage;

Tyrannous bullying is their game,

And their sole ability is to bring destruction.

 

I am destined to come across them from time to time,

Because my name is ship;

Facing the antagonist who is thousands of times more powerful than myself,

Only sobriety and bravery can save me.

 

Trepidation only renders a person blind,

And blindness only magnifies the ferocious features of the demons;

Perhaps my appearance is more frightful than them,

When I go all out at the cost of my life, pressing forward!

 

So long as I have kept one intact keel,

I will never sail into a safe harbour;

I place my life on the journey,

And the width and length of the road will be determined by courage.

 

When I am completely free,

The prow becomes a shovel with which to bury them;

In the waves I am dancing rhythmically,

Like swaying a huge swing.

 

Even if they tear me up,

Into some broken pieces,

I will never sink into depravity, never!

I can also wheel on the spray.

 

The late comer can recognize me on the remains,

And the future poet will sigh a deep sigh:

“There is a happy soul here,

Which has ever been a ship on the sailing ?”

— Tr. 张智中