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作者：炯炯 I am so lonely without him, and I am so sad with him, at that moment I know I love him, but love makes me Lost in the woods of darken trees; Love made me hate him, like Adam hated Eva, like Eva hated Snake, like Everyone hated the God's Apple ... So I suddenly can't bear his name, his Sneaky smile, his skinny legs, his doubtful loyalty, his smell in my teeth; Suddenly the Spring rain became cold, and the daffodil became pale, endless grass Spreading pollen, I cry and cry in the rain, and wash him with my tears ... My kneels are wobbling, I run from Left to right: am I not seeing this day Of course I did; of course I would lose All my love, of course in the grey corner I have to lick my own wound, of course I Would survive with or without him, Yet at this moment, and at this particular day, I only have pain to comfort me ... Had I not yet endured all the suffering in life Had I not sworn that I won't love again But I cannot let him go, just as the earth cannot survive without sun But I must let him go, just as the sun burns with or without earth orbiting around In the end, in the end I saw the world in a pitiful light I am so unfortunate a part of thee Lonely, broken, desired and be desired Yet how can I avoid living In the end .............................................................................. 没有他，我是多么的孤独；有他， 我是多么的忧伤；在这个片刻， 我知道我爱他，但是爱情 使我迷失在黑夜的森林，爱情 使我恨他，就像亚当恨夏娃，就像 夏娃恨蛇，就像每个人都恨 上帝的苹果 ... 突然间，我无法忍受他的名字，他 那狡黠的笑容，他那消瘦的腿，他 那可疑的忠诚，他那留在我齿间的 气味；突然间，春天显得寒冷，甘菊 显得苍白；无边无际的青青草散发 花粉，在细雨霏霏中我不断流泪， 泪水却无法洗清他的行迹 ... 我的膝盖开始颤抖，从左到右， 难道我不明白这样的日子？当然一切 都在预料之中，当然我会失去所有的爱情， 当然在灰色的角落，我会舔去所有的 伤痕，当然我会继续活着，但是 在这灰色的片刻，只有 痛苦陪伴我左右 ... 难道我还没有经历足够的挫折！ 难道我不该发誓再也不置身爱情！ 也许我无法离弃他，仿佛地球 无法离弃太阳；也许我必须离开他， 像那没有地球围绕也燃烧的太阳 到头来，我眼中的世界 总是笼罩着悲悯的光芒 我在其中，孤独，破碎， 向往和被向往 到头来我问自己 谁又能躲避生命 2016-4-29 |
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