 Hunger(2) Now I am living with my brother’s because of the lockdown in Lanzhou. Every day I receive the message that the daily necessities are harder and harder to get since the lockdown. The experience of suffering hunger did not teach me how to bear the agony of being hungry but the fear of suffering hunger. Those who have not suffered hunger can not understand that one may eat more than usual out of fear that he may suffer hunger even temporarily. He can get enough food for his belly, but he has to restrain his desire to eat more because of the lack of food. It is really torture. In fact, I can fill my bell with enough food, but psychologically I seem to be suffering hunger only out of the fear that I may one day be unable to get so much food for my belly. It completely comes from the childhood and boyhood experience of suffering hunger. One day when I was only 6 or 7 years old, one of my uncles asked me to help him to take care of the sheep which he planned to drive to the well to wash them and shear off all that fleece. Before that, he gave me a bowl of needles with diced pork. Although I had a bowl of noodles without pork at home, I devoured it and got more. Without hesitation, I let it slide down into my stomach. So mouthwatering that I totally forgot the fact that I had a bowl of noodles before having these two bowls of noodles only because in the noodles there was diced pork, which was rare in my house. And a scene that made my uncle hard to decide whether he should laugh and cry appeared: l lay down outside on the ground, groaning for the stomachache. Apparently, I was unable to help him drive and take care of his sheep while he was washing his sheep. He had to find another way to do the job. I felt ashamed after the great pleasure of enjoying the noodles with diced pork. I still remember the delicious noodles given by my uncle as well and the shame that I had too much. Of course, the most impressive thing is the agony of suffering hunger, which had a profound impact on my life: at any moment, I first of all want to fill my belly with enough food. I don’t want to suffer hunger and I hope anyone will not suffer hunger in the world. Any politician and activist should not do anything to make people suffer hunger whatever his greatest goal is. |
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